...hiDDEn pAin...

Barkada, ka-berks, d’barkads, whatever you call it, still it have one meaning, group of closest friends. I know that each of us have what we called friends who we can laugh or cry with, giggling every time crushes passes by, teasing each other, and problem adviser. Imposible masyado na sa isang tao, wala siyang matatawag na bestfriends. In fact, kahit gaano pa kasama ang isang tao, may kaibigan pa ring aalalay sa kanya. One saying defines that birds of the same feathers are the same birds. But that was just a joke. What I really mean is that birds of the same feathers flock together. So meaning, out of millions and millions people in the world, there’s still what we called true friends. Kaya nga nabuo ang barkada.

But not all the time, friends share laughter, fun, and smiles. There are also moments in our lives that we let our closest friend to be a stranger in our life, for the reason that they become our mortal enemy because of a simple argument or misunderstanding. Each barkada has its own story to tell. Like mine, I belong to a barkada that silent for a while and talks all the time. But it’s accepted, I’m one of the evidence. Still, our barkada has its own problem as well.

Why do barkada’s ended up separated? Naks, porang mag-asawa. Of course, friends treat each other as brothers and sisters. Kumbaga, magkakadugtong na ang sikmura. Sometimes, I asked myself what would be the reason that our barkada is not anymore what I called the barkada I belong, before. Reason? It’s the permanent thing in this world, CHANGE! Some friends don’t have time for each other. Or one member of the group fell in love with the other member and his/her time revolves to that person. That even if magkasama kayo, your presence is not felt. Or more likely, they will ask that could you give us moments together? Gosh ha, magakasama na nga the whole day. Or other would step out of the group because he/she has something important matter to do. Chicks2x kumabaga, or guy hunting. Though I’m not really as in against having lovelife, mayroon naman din kasi ako. I really don’t understand the situation na pag may dumating na friend, maiilang ka na lang na pansinin siya because your not hanging out much often, or more likely, your not really hanging out together again. Then, what happened? Wala, nasira lang naman ang grupo because of that,

I remembered quotable quote given to me by my other friend. It says that “uunahin talaga ang boyfriend/girlfriend kesa sa mga kaibigan, but when hurting moments come, kanino lalapit?? Sa friends pa rin tatakbo”. I hate hearing that statement cause it feels like takbuhan lang ang mga kaibigan sa kalungkutan but couldn’t even share there happiness. Like what I have said, I’m not really against having relationship or whatever, I just don’t want change. It’s just; I feel that others don’t know what’s going on while others are really affected. Or they already knew there’s something happening, they just don’t care. How sad if that’s the case. And how sad, its happening within my group of friends.

...TOP 5 EmbARrAssIng mOments of mY Life...

Well, got this idea of creating my top 5 most embarrassing moment from Moi2x. I read his article about this and got kind of jealousy. Joke. Jejejeje. La Lang. I do have many of this man but then again, yung memorable moments na lng.. Jejeje..

As 20 years passes in my life, of course we got this unexpected and funny moments we had. That if we are going to reminisce it, we cant help but laugh. And I would like to share this memorable moments in my life.

Top 5:
This happened when I was still in grade school. I was in grade 3 that time then we were playing what we called soccer during our age. Actually, ang gamit naming bola that time is a softball. Then, I'm so boastful that time na I keep on smirking to my friends saying na mas malayo yung sipa ko this time as of to my other team mates. Then when the ball touches the ground and going directly with me, it was so kakahiya that I didn't hit the ball and instead I fell off the ground with a loud bang sound. Then my friends all laugh at me since that I was really big when I was still in grade school. How embarassing.

Top 4:
Still in grade school. When I was in Grade 5 this time, I remember that it was Easter Sunday. I'm with my family. My mother hold my hand for that time cause there were really a huge crowd in our church. Hindi ko talaga binitawan ang kamay ng mama ko and she did the same way kasi baka mawala ako. Though malaki na rin ako that time, still bata pa rin. I didnt even know how to cross the street that time. I already knew that process when I was in 6th grade. Hatid sundo kasi ako ng mama ko till my 5th grade. So they taught me how to cross the street that time kasi naman sa lahat ng classmates ko ako na lng ang hindi marunong tumawid ng kalsada at the age of 11. Well,so much for that. The story really is that nakalingon lang ako sandali then I was holding another arm. Hindi kamay ng mama ko ang hawak ko. I was really ashamed about it because they keep on staring at me and keep om smiling. Kakahiya talaga ginawa ko.

Top 3:
I'm already in college noong nangyari to. We were sitting at the bench, front ng eagle statue sa USEP. We were waiting for our grades in English that time and then waiting for our grade in CWTS as well. Andun ako with friends. Then, we thought of mumbling words everytime may dumaan. Naglolokohan lang kami that time. When one group of boys passed by saying a very funny name. Sa sabrang tawa ko, nahulog ako sa bench. As in sa likod talaga. Then what made it worst is noong nasali pa yung isa kung friend na nahulog. Then hindi pa ako naka recover that time, kahit pinagtatawanan na nila ko coz my position that time is naka upo nako sa root ng acacia tree with my feet hanging sa log, I just couldnt help but laugh to my extent with the name I have heard. Tinutulungan na nila akong umahon, di pa rin ako makatayo kasi tawa pa rin ako ng tawa. And it really hurts. One lesson I have learned from that time is never to eavesdrop again.

Top 2:
This happened noong college na ako. I was first year college this time and ofcourse, naganap t osa USEP's ground. It was our first P.E. class na sinout namin ang uniform. But actually, wala kaming class that time. Our instructor told us that we can play na lng. So we decided to play "tigsu", para siyang habul-habulan here in Davao na may kasaling home base. Well, so much for the discussion about the game. Then the game started. Actually, I'm not really good in running. I'm so slow and evertything. La lang magawa and naglaro lang talaga ako. Part of the game yung pag na-touch ka ng kalaban is you will go to their base and stay there until one of your mates touches your hand or palm and then its a score. What happened is that, nagtakbuhan na lahat and then all of a sudden biglang sumulpot ang isang kasama sa ibang team. Though girl siya by heart, still malakas pa rin siya. And accidentally, he pushed me and I fell off sa ground. As in bumulagta talaga ako sa grounds. And my other classmates who didn't play run towards me and asked if I'm okei. Pati mukha ko that time was covered with grasses. Maputik kasi that time and gosh my white uniform turned to green. Sa sobrang hiya ko coz they were already laughing, nagtakip na lng ako ng mukha and laugh as well. Wala na rin akong nagawa noon. It was just a game.

Top 1:
This happened when I was in 4th year high school. I had a crush named Kenneth that time and he was a third year student. Wala lang kaming magawa ng friend ko that time and naisip naming sundan siya sa bahay nila. Stalking kumbaga. And it was layo there house ha. As in Matina Aplaya talaga. Then when we get there, bigla lang siyang pumara sa jip and we jumped off into our seat hearing the front seat door opened. Then automatic reaction, bumaba din kami. What happened is that are cellphones that time was lowbat. And we really dont know saan ang bahay nila. What we did with my friend is pumasok kami sa alley and tumambay sa isang tindahan. We dont know that the front house of that store is there house. Wala lang, tambay lang kami and a guy from the carwash went sa store. And he asked us what got us there. So we said that we are looking at our classmates house. Then all of a sudden, the door of there house opened and I was standing that time looking directly sa house. Then all of a sudden the gate opened and whaat, lumabas lang siya bigla. And noong nakita niya ako, agad2x siyang pumasok sa bahay nila then kami kumaripas ng takbo.

Well, that's it. Hope you had fun reading the top 5 most embarrassing moment of my life.. Sa uulitin..

...dONt kNOw...

I couldn't believe it myself what's happening with me. Just this January, something weird happened to me. Though one of my friends said that it is natural for me to become weird, its just I just couldn't find the right explanations or statement to explain what's happening with me. But actually, so far I'm happy.

It's again February and it's a love month, anyway. So don't mind me writing something here that is about love. Though it sounds corny and all that, but what shall you expect in a girl like me. Whew. As what my friend says, "Kamu dAw ma-inLove beh". Corny diba?? But actually, I'm not quite sure if this I'm feeling right now is somewhat called love. Don't know really. And that is the problem I'm facing this time. But then, I like this guy so much. I think I'm getting there. But I dont know when would that time come. All I know is that I'm happy with him, and hoping that he's happy too. Gosh, what am I writing here right now.

And here is the real problem, were not that really close. Even though that we meet in our church, were not that really close. We dont talk that often. I was just playing around with him after the fellowship. Then, that starts that something and ended up something. If you dont understand whats that something is about, then dont force yourself to know it. My mom and my elder brother met him already, and as far as I'm concerned, he's just the second guy that I introduced to my mom. I dont know the reaction of my mother, she never said anything. Well, so much for that topic. And what I'am worrying about is that i just broke up with my last bf(kuno!) last Thursday. See?? I have done something worst and terrible things, well, I guess for me. And that previous bf(kuno!) of mine already knew that I have a new already. Gosh again, what am I writing. But actually, what I have written here are true.

I just write something here cause I really don't understand whats happening to me. And I really want an advice. I'm just scared about what would people would say about me. I know that people really judged someone as if they knew the deeper attitude or the inside of that someone. I dont want to be judged by doing something stupid. But I just couldn't find myself doing the wrong thing, neither doing the right one. All I know is just I'm happy right now, and on the othe side, worrying about something I dont want to worry about. I'm worrying about my ex's(kuno!) reaction. I just cou;dn't find myself happy with him. There are lots of worries that fills me everytime we are together, and I couldn't feel his presence after all, same with that I coldn't feel he feels the same way as what I have feel to him, but that was jus t before. Right now, I also couldn't explain the happiness and worry of what would happen tomorrow. But then, all I could see or vision about is what the Bible says. "Dont worry for tomorrow, let tomorrow worry itself. There's a lot of things to be worried today!". Gosh. Worrying about something that doesn't really need to be worry. You get what I mean??

...USEP IS PLan...

Basically, we have just did an IS plan in our distinguish company during our MIS 1. And based on our papers for that matters, it requires more consideration to be followed, but more likely there are more factors to be considered. Especially if we are talking about how to expedite this plan to the university.

And listed below are the factors to be considered:

Project Orientation:
It is similar to what Hannah and Jonard have said about project management. But I just use the word "Orientation" in order to emphasize that the plan or the IS plan must be tackled to the group in order for them to understand what is the plan all about. It is not that applicable that only those who did the plan understands what he did. Then it better for the people involve in the plan on what kind of involvement they will have in order for them to participate enthusiastically.

Resources Interpretation:
In creating an IS plan, whether this is for the university or a big organization, the group that designed the plan has its own resources to be interpreted in order for the user or the people involved in the plan knows what are those possible resources or data to know. During our MIS 1, we created a probable usage of hardware and software for the specific company. In that, the company might as well know what they will be needing in year after.

Training of the people involve:
People is the basic equipment of an IS Plan. Since that they're the one's using the systems or they're the one involve in the plan. Since that they are the user or the client of the plan, it must be necessary that they have the knowledge about and how to deal with the change. Since we are talking about a plan, it is guaranteed that the we are dealing with change.

...Ask fOR fORgiveness...

I know that I tend to become lazy this past few months. I promised to myself that my new years resolution is not to become lazy again, especially on my studies. As what I have observed about what I keep doing, I just really cant focus on my studies. I keep pretending that nothings to worry about but deep in me, there are many problems to be worrying. I just disregard everything. And today, what I have done to my group mates is unacceptable. Though I have my reason of coming late, still this is not the first time I did this. And I feel that my group mates already hate me for such doing. And I don't like the feeling like that I was not part of the group anymore. Though its just my feelings on everytime this happens.

To Kate Mariel, I'm really sorry for being late every time we have an agreement of coming to school at a certain time. I know that you are the first one who arrives first. And to think that you live in Bangkal. I'm sorry. To Hannah. I know that you only have a little patient left on me. And I hope that little left will still be it. And lastly to Lady Vu. As what I have seen you later when we crossed streets, I observed that your not in good mood for anything. In other term, siguro, napul-an na jud ka sa ako. Hmmmm.. I really beg for your forgiveness.

This time, as I have stated here my apology and I'm not asking for urgent forgiveness cause I know words are not really the basis of a whole hearted apology, it must be done and work. I wont promise anything cause for me promises are made to be broken, but I'll assure you that this day would be the last day that I will do such thing. I also want to say thank you for the patient you still have in me. Murag nakabantay na pud ko na nanganad nako. And I'm really sorry for that. Hope that you will forgive me in time.

...mOst RadicAL chAnge...

Before discussing the topic, let me first define the following. Automation, based on wikipedia, is the use of control systems such as computers to control industrial machinery and processes, reducing the need for human intervention. According to the meaning of radiation, it is a concept used by Weber to refer to the process by which modes of precise calculation and organization, involving abstract rules and procedures, increasingly come to dominate the social world. Business Reengineering is an approach aiming at improvements by means of elevating efficiency and effectiveness of the business process that exist within and across organizations. Business Reegineering is the analysis and redesign of workflow within and between enterprises. Lastly, paradigm shift. A Paradigm Shift is when a significant change happens - usually from one fundamental view to a different view. In most cases, some type of major discontinuity occurs as well. A Paradigm Shift as a change from one way of thinking to another. It's a revolution, a transformation, a sort of metamorphosis. It just does not happen, but rather it is driven by agents of change.

As defined above and been shown by Hannah's answer, the most radical type of change in an organization is the PARADIGM SHIFT. Based on the graph shown by Hannah, the most risky change is the paradigm shift since it is a change, a revolution, an unexpected happen occurs. It turns the organization into something new. A whole renovation, that mean. Relatively, it can be said that it is a radical change since that the organization dont have the power to fight against this change.

...Activity DiagRam...

The diagram states the activities done by the student in USEP for the enrollment. First, the student must pay his/her miscellaneous fees in the local council. Then, he will proceed to his/her adviser for the evaluation of grades. If the student is qualified to enroll, he can then now proceed to get his PRF or the Pre- Registration Form. After signing it to the adviser for approval, he can then now proceed to encode his grades. If the student is a scholar, he will proceed to the scholars office for validation of the scholarship and proceed to the bookkeeper for the validation of his payments. If the student is a non-scholar, he will go to the cashier and pay his tuition and proceeds to the bookkeeper as well. After that, the student will proceed to the registrar and library for library card validation and he can now be officially enrolled.