Tuesday, July 20, 2010

My First Job

I have this job for more than a month.. And I can say that being a teacher in elementary and High school courses is definitely not in my senses. I hate the feeling when everytime I looked at my students eyes, telling me that I'm not an effective teacher. Believe me, teaching grade school and high school is really tough. Especially in this school. I know that the priority of the teacher is to teach her students lessons they haven't learned and not by telling them only what to do. But I get used of my college life. Wherein the scenario is different. That was college, and this is elementary and high school. I really dont hate my students. Its just they make me feel stupid. When I'm talking in front of the class, they are pretending that they are listening, but when I turned my back at them, I can hear the gossips about me. I just dont like the feeling of being underestimated where in fact I'm trying my very best to give my knowledge to them. And not only to the students Im being down. I also feel the same way to my co-teachers here. Though not all, but most of them. They are not supportive and I can feel that they dont want me here. Ika nga sa Pinoy, crab mentality. They dont want someone to go up, instead they are pulling that someone to go down. I hate the feeling when I smile and greeted them in the morning without anything in response. As if they didn't see that I approached them. I hate the feeling when all the eyes are looking towards me. As if I have done something bad. I hate the feeling when they can't recognize my efforts. At the first place, this is effortful. Teaching students wherein fact I dont have any degree or experienced when it comes to classroom management. But I do love teaching, not with this manner. Buti pa sa public, you have your freedom. Pwede ka mangasaba, pwede ka mamundak, pwede ka mushagit. Diri, daghan bawal. Bawal ni, dapat ani. Bawal na, kini lang dapat nimong buhaton. Do they think that the students cant learn something from that. Salig man gud mga students diri. Anak sa datu! Mao na kailangan, sila permi ang i-pleased. Spoiled Brat. I hate them the way they answer back. Grade 1 pa gani kabalo na mutubag. How much more sa high school. I hate their actions. They pretend to know all wherein fact, layo pa na ilang kaagi sa among kaagi sa una. I hate them the way they treat teachers. Mura lang mig katabang diri sa school. Kumbaga ang muhatod sa ila, ilang nanny. Diri sa sulod sa classroom, nanny lang japon. Hungitan pa masking dako na.Here comes the dragon pa. Who tends to speak good words at your front but at the back of her mind, naa na tanan didto ang mga butang na dili maayo. Isn't it nice to hear that she will say, walang libakanay. Pero numero una diay manlibak. Treating her teachers like chimi-aa. That is the reason why, walay muduagay na teachers diri. Haizt. Just giving myself a break from bad aura. To end the story, Im happy with teaching, I love it, its just, I think I'm not appropriate here. I'm not HAPPY here!!

14 comments:

kharen said...

ngpost lnh gani si glaira na gilumot ang blog pinaabtik na daun ang post..LOL

gow gel..!..mao nay gihatag ni Lord nmo..mao na imu assignment..give your best?

蔡舜娟蔡舜娟 said...

THX FOR SHARE!!!感激呀!............................................................

謝文新李怡君 said...

感謝分享 功德無量............................................................

陳柏毅 said...

快樂,是享受工作過程的結果..................................................

仲惠娟惠娟亨 said...

婚姻對男人來說是賭他的自由,對女人而言卻是賭她的幸福。.................................................................

恭v秋昀嘉 said...

It is easier to get than to keep it.......................................................................

玄王季玄王季玄王季 said...

Learning makes a good man better and ill man worse.............................................................

童建李宜昌智 said...

時時關心,時時感動。..................................................

8468 said...

愛,拆開來是心和受兩個字。用心去接受對方的一切,用心去愛對方的所有。......................................................................

怡靜怡靜怡靜怡雯 said...

說「吃虧就是便宜的人」,多半不是吃虧的人。......................................................................

佳張張張張燕張張張張張 said...

第一忠誠,第二勤奮,第三專心工作。..................................................

石JaquelynS_Whitesi白 said...

生命所經歷的折磨愈多,其所產生的奮鬥力愈大。................. ................................................

王雅俊 said...

果然是好文章 受益良多 感謝分享 ̄ 3 ̄......................................................

Febe Mae said...

ana jud siguro na ang mga students sa private..ngsalig kay sila nagapawork sa school...hehehe...ok lng na..pagsulay ra na